I was going to name this blog Content(with much consideration, I do not believe I need to make this point, as it is point-less and would infer that I keep up with this blog as I should and I write insightful things that more than myself would want to listen to, and I'm starting to count myself out of that one.
But, Content. There are too many of us who are content with the regular day and the constant motion of nothing in our lives. Thus, there is a plague of content(adv)(not noun). We are content to be whatever we want to be while just doing the same thing thats been done before. So, a constant repitition of nothing, just movement, in no direction and for no motive. Well, there's always a motive, but there is always a greater motive to act on a bigger dream/want/even need.
I don't write much at the times I start to be satified by the things around me, or too tired from them. Rethinging that thought, I actually can list millions of reasons why I don't write, or for that matter, don't do much that is productive outsiding of work(which is highly unfulfilling for any of my needs), and providing the basic needs of life. An even bigger contribution to my lack in writing, is I feel my ability is a downfall, thus I'd rather only produce a good product. This goes along with guitar, spanish, working out, continuing my education, even starting my cpa, everything(well, all that I would like to accomplish, hopefully we can bring it down to my personal level for a second)
We want to exist in a society that moves us forward, not us moving forward, but our enviroment is the one acting upon us. Granted, as I generalize, which I do, and in my naivity, also produce a lower grade product, I believe these words, or at least think them. But as I generalize, this does not apply to all, actually I run across many people who break my assumption everyday, but I am in the white collar working class, the bottom, yes, but I'm there, for better or worse(and most days its the latter, but thats to be expected, we're animals doing the jobs of the neurons in our brains(what?)).
Well, unfortunately, we live in the world, and the world has a poverty rate of some
percentage that CNN might tell me that would cause me to instantly cry. But this world, and our society, reflects this a hundred fold, as there is such a misguided balance of wealth(and power). (please don't read this and point wealth and all of my references to cash related items as purely that, but the lifestyle and the means ones are given.) This inbalance, is due to many factors as well, but one fact(or crazy opinion made up in my lost little head) is that most do not have the work ethic to strive to not be content with the whole, their life, their livelihood, and theirs and the people's around them's wellbeing. However, just to throw in a counter, or more of a justification, most have many societal, relational, and personal influences that affect their outcome, beliefs and motivations.
The inbalance in economy and status is due to most's lack of effort to create something better, which cannot just come in one aspect of one's life, but once a specific part is worked on(if the motivation is there, and the plague has not grabbed hold of them(I don't believe it's that serious, actually, it is)), work on the next.
We are in constant motion, i.e. time is in constant motion, so our lives should be as well. So, to be content, is not a motion but a lack of motion, or more so, a lack of productive motion. A friend of mine once put it right, 'Be happy with what you have, but never be content'.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Unemployment
As I stated in the title of this page, due to the education, as fine or invaluable as it may be, I am indebted to a large entity far more powerful than myself. No, not God (but Him too), the banks, i.e. the corporations of America (or of capitalism). This amount is obviously over six figures, and does many things to effect one's mental well being, their moods, their livelihood, but most obvious and important, one's finances.
This debt is a bit over whelming, but when compared with society and most of those living paycheck to paycheck, which per another blog that I guess I'm a member to, or whatever phrase is popular here, this amounts to 77% of all Americans. I pay my debt to my country(school) as a hard(I try) working bank employee; no, not bank is a personal consumer standpoint, an large asset servicing and holding institution(you can't even imagine the overdrafts we charge, so go to your local National City(:O).)
But, looking around at the world I live in, I should be very grateful to those banks that believed in my brain, to the school that charged me an audacious sum of money for some knowledge, and the cosigners that thought I'd make enough someday to pay off a mid-size house mortgage. Either way, all of my complaining does not amount to those who are suffering due to job loss, job insecurity, and an overall underpaid economy. My position isn't easy and its very unfulfilling emotional and soul-lessly, but it pays me an income that I can come home and be minorly comfortable.
There are so many that can barely find a bad paying job, who've also invested many thousands of dollars into their degrees, and continue to search for work, whatever is available. My significant other is in search of work after paying 20K plus(no blog though) on a tech school; my mother is desperately searching for a position with just 5 measly working years ahead of her until retirement(something she should be very thankful for, that and a pension, if that's still there) due to layoffs of a large hospital downsize. My father spent many years on unemployment and disability after being cut from the workplace; he died an over-tipped, well under-paid front desk attendant with 3 degrees. My girl friend's uncle spent the better part of 2 years on unemployment due to laying off by a large oil company that decided to go in a different direction. My own colleagues see layoffs in every area of our business as Indians are smarter, harder working, and better able to pronounce R's.
It's everywhere; so, should we be thankful of those government safety nets, however meaningless and unfulfilling they are. Yes, but at those points, the hope for a better day, at least a more prosperous one, is gone.
There's jobs. But there's also unemployment.
This debt is a bit over whelming, but when compared with society and most of those living paycheck to paycheck, which per another blog that I guess I'm a member to, or whatever phrase is popular here, this amounts to 77% of all Americans. I pay my debt to my country(school) as a hard(I try) working bank employee; no, not bank is a personal consumer standpoint, an large asset servicing and holding institution(you can't even imagine the overdrafts we charge, so go to your local National City(:O).)
But, looking around at the world I live in, I should be very grateful to those banks that believed in my brain, to the school that charged me an audacious sum of money for some knowledge, and the cosigners that thought I'd make enough someday to pay off a mid-size house mortgage. Either way, all of my complaining does not amount to those who are suffering due to job loss, job insecurity, and an overall underpaid economy. My position isn't easy and its very unfulfilling emotional and soul-lessly, but it pays me an income that I can come home and be minorly comfortable.
There are so many that can barely find a bad paying job, who've also invested many thousands of dollars into their degrees, and continue to search for work, whatever is available. My significant other is in search of work after paying 20K plus(no blog though) on a tech school; my mother is desperately searching for a position with just 5 measly working years ahead of her until retirement(something she should be very thankful for, that and a pension, if that's still there) due to layoffs of a large hospital downsize. My father spent many years on unemployment and disability after being cut from the workplace; he died an over-tipped, well under-paid front desk attendant with 3 degrees. My girl friend's uncle spent the better part of 2 years on unemployment due to laying off by a large oil company that decided to go in a different direction. My own colleagues see layoffs in every area of our business as Indians are smarter, harder working, and better able to pronounce R's.
It's everywhere; so, should we be thankful of those government safety nets, however meaningless and unfulfilling they are. Yes, but at those points, the hope for a better day, at least a more prosperous one, is gone.
There's jobs. But there's also unemployment.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Motivation and Clearing the Air
I'm not for putting God into my writing because I feel that's one very sacred subject, that I keep close and personal to myself, but one I should share. I just have my doubts in my ability to arrange my thoughts in a manner that would not appear blaspheming. I do not wish to spread any unclear thoughts into this world that would be incorrect as the Bible has laid out.
I also come across this same fear when dealing with a word such as slaves. As I do feel our society has made the working middle (and lower) class slaves here and abroad, I do not want to exaggerate or offend those who have strong views against slavery. We are not slaves in a sense of any inhuman or abused nature, but in nature.
So, to just spread more confusion into my writings, I put those fore warnings, that I am not here to offend or blaspheme, but to inform and discover, personal and societal.
To keep the motivation that I long to always come to this point and express my views and opinions is not an easy task, but is anything in this world? So, to sit here and complain about motivation and the like, is unnecessary and unproductive. I simply feel that desperate situations, i.e. 100K plus, do not agree with a lifestyle of motivation and hope. As all have a breaking point and most just are here to live. I'd rather prosper, but wouldn't we all. But even more so, I'd rather contribute. So here I lay, working my mind to put the nonsense that I believe and have been taught into words, ideas, and possible even a well-conceived blog.
I also come across this same fear when dealing with a word such as slaves. As I do feel our society has made the working middle (and lower) class slaves here and abroad, I do not want to exaggerate or offend those who have strong views against slavery. We are not slaves in a sense of any inhuman or abused nature, but in nature.
So, to just spread more confusion into my writings, I put those fore warnings, that I am not here to offend or blaspheme, but to inform and discover, personal and societal.
To keep the motivation that I long to always come to this point and express my views and opinions is not an easy task, but is anything in this world? So, to sit here and complain about motivation and the like, is unnecessary and unproductive. I simply feel that desperate situations, i.e. 100K plus, do not agree with a lifestyle of motivation and hope. As all have a breaking point and most just are here to live. I'd rather prosper, but wouldn't we all. But even more so, I'd rather contribute. So here I lay, working my mind to put the nonsense that I believe and have been taught into words, ideas, and possible even a well-conceived blog.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Socialism and Social Activistists
Now, to think that I could sit here and elaborate on such a broad topic as I have chosen for this title is giving myself way too much credit and not understanding that broad topics are infinite in matter. We ALL believe different things and think differently.
To think socialism is all wrong is either ignorant or arrogant. But most in a middle class society and higher have chosen to take such views that were hand fed by propaganda, whether government or corporation or other interest based. There is nothing wrong with everyone in a society not living under a set of standards, and to disagree is inhuman, but in America, widely accepted. We already have many systems set up to assist the poor and diseased in this society, so how far are we from a socialist world in America can we say we have become. At least in socialism there is an all encompassing work force, which, yes, there would be the non-workers, as there are now. But at least there are the positions, jobs, to accommodate the many that are job-less. Workers would feel slighted, as they do now, that about at the very least 30% of a taxed position is to feed those who don't feel like working. Obviously, there is some sarcasm, as there are the lazy, but there are also the less fortunate.
Well, we (I) can bitch all I want, but that will do none the less to add to the trillions of words that are spoken/written/and thought on the subject of personal macroeconomics. We(most of us, as 1% have 95% of the wealth in our world) are born as slaves. And I hate to add that as most in America put the connotation of slavery as in African American slaves, but what is failed to point out because there were many problems in the founding of this country that were very race related, is that white Europeans held the wealth, so they held the power, and the ease to enslave.
But I put slavery in a more broad sense, not a racist or derogatory terming, but we are no more paid workers than we are slaves. We, with the exception of those who cheat and live under the system, but we are slaves that decide to work with the system. Slaves that do have a higher standard of living, a guarantee for food and shelter, and the like. But slaves as there is no choice, we must work and after our education is complete, we must spend a majority of our waking moments at positions that are not pleasing nor fulfilling. Not the American dream that was the fiction we were so happily told. Slaves to a system, slaves to a government.
So, here is where I have turned my head in past writings, for hopes that I may be some famous published (secular) writer, that God has called us to this world, which He knew was broken. So, we as people, Christian and non-believer alike, are called here to be slaves. And luckily in America, you can chose a lower standard of living and not work as you were intended too, which obviously hurts your being, but also harms the whole in which we all reside. But God has called us to be His slaves, and to be the world's slaves.
So, I do not know where my writings head, but I pray and hope, I can write with more heavenly influence, that I may not perpetuate a system that I can neither buy out of or demolish, but unearth some Godly ideas for a broken system.
We are social, so to put negative connotations on a system such as socialism is entirely contradictory and blasphemy on our very nature. But it is also America, because we, downwards and upwards of the economy, are mainly a prideful greedy and self serving community.
So, how is this a community? It is not, it is a broken community, because self-serving and community are entirely contradictory and incorrect in manner. But nevertheless, that is what we are and have become.
So, where does this end? In education, in activism, in charity, in us.
To think socialism is all wrong is either ignorant or arrogant. But most in a middle class society and higher have chosen to take such views that were hand fed by propaganda, whether government or corporation or other interest based. There is nothing wrong with everyone in a society not living under a set of standards, and to disagree is inhuman, but in America, widely accepted. We already have many systems set up to assist the poor and diseased in this society, so how far are we from a socialist world in America can we say we have become. At least in socialism there is an all encompassing work force, which, yes, there would be the non-workers, as there are now. But at least there are the positions, jobs, to accommodate the many that are job-less. Workers would feel slighted, as they do now, that about at the very least 30% of a taxed position is to feed those who don't feel like working. Obviously, there is some sarcasm, as there are the lazy, but there are also the less fortunate.
Well, we (I) can bitch all I want, but that will do none the less to add to the trillions of words that are spoken/written/and thought on the subject of personal macroeconomics. We(most of us, as 1% have 95% of the wealth in our world) are born as slaves. And I hate to add that as most in America put the connotation of slavery as in African American slaves, but what is failed to point out because there were many problems in the founding of this country that were very race related, is that white Europeans held the wealth, so they held the power, and the ease to enslave.
But I put slavery in a more broad sense, not a racist or derogatory terming, but we are no more paid workers than we are slaves. We, with the exception of those who cheat and live under the system, but we are slaves that decide to work with the system. Slaves that do have a higher standard of living, a guarantee for food and shelter, and the like. But slaves as there is no choice, we must work and after our education is complete, we must spend a majority of our waking moments at positions that are not pleasing nor fulfilling. Not the American dream that was the fiction we were so happily told. Slaves to a system, slaves to a government.
So, here is where I have turned my head in past writings, for hopes that I may be some famous published (secular) writer, that God has called us to this world, which He knew was broken. So, we as people, Christian and non-believer alike, are called here to be slaves. And luckily in America, you can chose a lower standard of living and not work as you were intended too, which obviously hurts your being, but also harms the whole in which we all reside. But God has called us to be His slaves, and to be the world's slaves.
So, I do not know where my writings head, but I pray and hope, I can write with more heavenly influence, that I may not perpetuate a system that I can neither buy out of or demolish, but unearth some Godly ideas for a broken system.
We are social, so to put negative connotations on a system such as socialism is entirely contradictory and blasphemy on our very nature. But it is also America, because we, downwards and upwards of the economy, are mainly a prideful greedy and self serving community.
So, how is this a community? It is not, it is a broken community, because self-serving and community are entirely contradictory and incorrect in manner. But nevertheless, that is what we are and have become.
So, where does this end? In education, in activism, in charity, in us.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
The Reality
The reality of all this really is that I should not only not be surprised, but I should have expected to be as financially degragate as when I came into this world. (that's a little of a pessimistic view, and I definitely don't think degregate is a word)
Either way, with all my study of economics and the financial system we were built into, my view of levels has been confirmed. If the middle class were supposed to be another thing, it would have. But it was not, it was formed to be an illusion. That this was the society that evolved. There are only 2 classes, the slaves and the rich. Hopefully, no one reads this because one might call a statement like such racist, even more so knowing I am a full grown white male. But I don't believe in race. I believe in people. And more so than that, on a side note, I believe our, all of ours, problem is that we put ourselves into a financial world. Granted, not all societies are as capitalistic as ours that creates such a phrase and idea as 'the American Dream', but we were still built into a system that we did nothing to create, and can thus only perpetuate.
But my point today, is only to write to prove to myself that I should have know of the consequences, and I was what I was, and am what I am. A slave. But, through all of that, it looked to be complaining, and that is not where I want the emotion and underlying thought to lay. No, rather, just to state that I am that position in life.
I paid 100K Plus to continue down the path that made me and remain into the debt that I was born to. My religion, more, my God, makes me feel otherwise, that we are meant to be slaves. I would say more to serve each other and Himself and not serve(service) financial assets in the form derivatives.
But then thus is my place on this great earth.
I feel this needs elaborated on more, and it shall be. At a later time, and hopefully a better place.
Either way, with all my study of economics and the financial system we were built into, my view of levels has been confirmed. If the middle class were supposed to be another thing, it would have. But it was not, it was formed to be an illusion. That this was the society that evolved. There are only 2 classes, the slaves and the rich. Hopefully, no one reads this because one might call a statement like such racist, even more so knowing I am a full grown white male. But I don't believe in race. I believe in people. And more so than that, on a side note, I believe our, all of ours, problem is that we put ourselves into a financial world. Granted, not all societies are as capitalistic as ours that creates such a phrase and idea as 'the American Dream', but we were still built into a system that we did nothing to create, and can thus only perpetuate.
But my point today, is only to write to prove to myself that I should have know of the consequences, and I was what I was, and am what I am. A slave. But, through all of that, it looked to be complaining, and that is not where I want the emotion and underlying thought to lay. No, rather, just to state that I am that position in life.
I paid 100K Plus to continue down the path that made me and remain into the debt that I was born to. My religion, more, my God, makes me feel otherwise, that we are meant to be slaves. I would say more to serve each other and Himself and not serve(service) financial assets in the form derivatives.
But then thus is my place on this great earth.
I feel this needs elaborated on more, and it shall be. At a later time, and hopefully a better place.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Really?
That is the question.
Actually, on the contrary, suprisingly it never does turn to that. And I'm so open with it.
I am an open book. Cliche. But true.
I sincerely try not to be, but I envelop all that would be meant by such a statement. Say one word to me, and I'm '...100K plus'. Its rather embarassing that with something so, well, embarassing, but even more so, personal, I would share this with just about anyone at the drop of a dime. I should keep something like this hid up inside and use it to fuel my success.
Ha, well quite the opposite, my friend. It's fueling my downfall. Downfall to where? I don't know, but downfall at best description. I thought that maybe I'd start back up another blog, cause we all know if you've had one, you've had a couple. But I thought I'd start it to finally put some of me, well more of me. because what is a blog but someone's thoughts. I thought I'd start it because before I tailored to what I thought would be interesting to others, for what odd reason I do not know, in that, there are millions of these. I tried to focus on the world and society, but it brought me down. And why did I start writing in the first place?
to understand me.
Which I still don't, and know that much less about the world and society. Because what am I more than a child of this world and a member of this society.
But I digress, as will always occur in such mindless writing where no boundaries are formed.
I am writing this to at the very least, bitch, because blogs were meant as such, in fact, many forms of media are meant for this exact act. (Describing it that way sounds so mindless, but in this day, a word such as this is very powerful in meaning. Especially in our dumbed down version of a country we deem the US of A.)
I am writing this because I am severly in debt, not just by any debt. I mean I'd be happy to be in debt to the purchase of an asset(a large one, preferably a house. A car that expensive would just be silly without a house. But, it would be a damn good looking house/car.) But I am in debt to a purchase of a piece of paper. A skill, I guess. More a scam,; one to keep you within those lines you were born into. Anyone can live the American Dream, but some have more and some have less. So, I am here today to say that I don't know what to do, leading me to believe that I have no flippin clue about myself and, for the better benefit, society.
The tipping point for this decision to allow myself to ever complain as I have named it and blogged it, was yahoo.com. There was a story of an NYU student who was over 97K in debt. Ha, she went to NY f'n U in NY f'n C. I'm going to pay $20 for a Big Mac there, let alone an education. Big Mac Index that!
I'm not saying I didn't love every second of it and it didn't change my life for the better.
But at what cost?
Well, funny you should ask. Half of my wages working for the average (Pittsburgh) salary. There's nothing to say for now more than I paid half of my life for a 4 (and a half ;p) year schooling and sheet of paper.
I'm just saying.
Actually, on the contrary, suprisingly it never does turn to that. And I'm so open with it.
I am an open book. Cliche. But true.
I sincerely try not to be, but I envelop all that would be meant by such a statement. Say one word to me, and I'm '...100K plus'. Its rather embarassing that with something so, well, embarassing, but even more so, personal, I would share this with just about anyone at the drop of a dime. I should keep something like this hid up inside and use it to fuel my success.
Ha, well quite the opposite, my friend. It's fueling my downfall. Downfall to where? I don't know, but downfall at best description. I thought that maybe I'd start back up another blog, cause we all know if you've had one, you've had a couple. But I thought I'd start it to finally put some of me, well more of me. because what is a blog but someone's thoughts. I thought I'd start it because before I tailored to what I thought would be interesting to others, for what odd reason I do not know, in that, there are millions of these. I tried to focus on the world and society, but it brought me down. And why did I start writing in the first place?
to understand me.
Which I still don't, and know that much less about the world and society. Because what am I more than a child of this world and a member of this society.
But I digress, as will always occur in such mindless writing where no boundaries are formed.
I am writing this to at the very least, bitch, because blogs were meant as such, in fact, many forms of media are meant for this exact act. (Describing it that way sounds so mindless, but in this day, a word such as this is very powerful in meaning. Especially in our dumbed down version of a country we deem the US of A.)
I am writing this because I am severly in debt, not just by any debt. I mean I'd be happy to be in debt to the purchase of an asset(a large one, preferably a house. A car that expensive would just be silly without a house. But, it would be a damn good looking house/car.) But I am in debt to a purchase of a piece of paper. A skill, I guess. More a scam,; one to keep you within those lines you were born into. Anyone can live the American Dream, but some have more and some have less. So, I am here today to say that I don't know what to do, leading me to believe that I have no flippin clue about myself and, for the better benefit, society.
The tipping point for this decision to allow myself to ever complain as I have named it and blogged it, was yahoo.com. There was a story of an NYU student who was over 97K in debt. Ha, she went to NY f'n U in NY f'n C. I'm going to pay $20 for a Big Mac there, let alone an education. Big Mac Index that!
I'm not saying I didn't love every second of it and it didn't change my life for the better.
But at what cost?
Well, funny you should ask. Half of my wages working for the average (Pittsburgh) salary. There's nothing to say for now more than I paid half of my life for a 4 (and a half ;p) year schooling and sheet of paper.
I'm just saying.
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